I Miss..

..My Tambi Queen



She's so near, yet so far. Do you know how many pictures I have of her that I want to post up? It's like she's born to look crazy in pictures. It's weird, there are more pictures of her compared to anyone else in my outing pictures. It's a damn sign !! zomg ?? D:

..My Princess Matasepet



Who ask her go KL? Who ask her tattoo her eyebrows? Who ask her curl her hair? DUN TAKE MY ADVICE LA. Like this call FREN ?? Blarrrr. Good to hear she's adjusted to KL life. Can't believe the bugger likes BOOTS now. BOOTS. Convert to ah-lian liao.

..My Char Shao Pau Pau



She's coming to Kuching to study next month too~ Sambal power 3 in 1 !! Euu all dun jeles. Though, she's plopped in another uni only taxi-driver-knows-where. Spring still the nearest to me. Nyeheh. Nyeheheheheheh.

..My Catwillscratchuruglyface



Ok. This pic kinda scary. But whatever. Still funny. I think I will develop this picture into a photo and keep it in my wallet. Then, whoever steals my wallet will open and see this picture. Then they will laugh like hell. Then they will die.

..My Bleached Tofu



I wonder if she's still pale like before. I so miss bossing her around to wear frumpy clothing for the drama competition. Her make up was so heavy. It's like water colour on white paper. I wonder if she'll let us colour her face once she comes back.

..My Sweets and Candy



She's nothing but sweet !! I can't find any bad pictures of her !! *grumble* Kamu tunggulah. Peace sign peace sign. Kamu tunggu. How's being in Curtin with Samuel ?? :P

..My Daily Intake of Horny



Is she digging her.. :x I can't believe you let Samuel convince you to get a bob. What's worse is that I can't call you mushroom head because it sounds wrong !! D: Oh. Must eat more pork. Will see you when I come back~

..My Burnt Trumpeteer



I should ban this pic from the guys. Hmm. Can't seem to remember when she used to be fair. Must have been ages ago since she burnt herself for some band comp. Oh well, most of the best lawyers are indian anyway, I suppose her skintone will give her some camo.

..My Piggy Whale



I saved the best worst for last. She's coming back this semester break~ We shall meet up at Coffee Bean and listen to more horny sex phone saxophone music together. I hope the mole remover granpa is in Parkson when you come back. I chia u remove 1 mole. :D

Am back in Miri now~ The flight was horrible. Sat between a guy with some horrible tuberculosis-like cough and a stinky, fat camper man. Damn that cibai receptionist pig who gave me that seat. His mole will grow hair and it will hurt like hell when he tries to pluck it out. Idiot.

Now, why do I just post up the girls? Why don't I post up about my guy friends? Because I'm not gay. :P Nah, the guys just aren't pretty enough, that's why.

I suppose chances are against that we all see each other together again. Best make the time we have now before we get careers and start rejecting calls because we're 'too busy' or 'in a meeting'. :(

Sorrowfully posted up by,
The Milkman

Rantings of a Hygiene Freak

I don't understand why..


..why some guys..


..they just can't..


..really can't..


..F*CKING AIM THEIR WEEWEE TO PEEPEE INTO THE DAMN TOILET BOWLBOWL ??


How many times have I used public toilets since coming here. It's like everytime I use the toilet, there are either small puddles of 'drying' urine either on the base of the toilet bowl, the toilet seat itself, or at the part where the toilet seat and cover are joined. I sometimes wonder if they really have bladder dysfunction. If they do, fine, I can't blame them from 'dribbling'. But seriously, do you have to pee on the toilet seat too?

For any guys who are reading this, remember to always;


LIFT UP THE F*CKING TOILET SEAT WHEN YOU HAVE TO PEE.


I won't be surprised if the intelligence of man finally implodes and everyone starts peeing on the toilet seat COVER instead.

At least the seat might be spared.

I wonder if girls ever have to deal with this crap everytimes they use the toilet.

Honestly, guys,

AIM BEFORE YOU SHOOT.

'Pissed' off,

The Milkman

It's Like The Sims, Only Less Perverted.

Remove that blur when they go into the shower and hopefully you get what I mean.

Just a day before the first day of my semester finals.

It'll start off with 'English and Communication Skills', along with 'General Mathematics' on Monday, 'Information Technology' on Tuesday, 'Engineering Mathematics' on Wednesday, and 'Physics' on Thursday, not to forget, 'Freedom to Run Around Campus Naked' on Friday.

You see, I don't get why we are studying English this late in our lives. I mean, honestly, it doesn't even make understanding the terms in our science subjects any easier. All there is to the subject is FORMAT, FORMATS, and FORMATTING. It's just so annoying.

In a way, it's pretty easy to see that Swinburne is CLEARLY making easy money out of this subject, with all the PART-TIME lecturers hired to teach us ENGLISH. Seriously, come ON. Why have an 'Intensive English' course when you're forcing the rest of the students to take up English as a required subject ANYWAY? It's just so unnecessary. So what if we would have to write reports in the future? Our bosses don't want to read about ONE activity in, what, 3-4 pages? With all the citations and in-text referencing flung in and out of the report. If they DO want the details in detail, just speak to us in person. It's faster than reading an eye-squinting report and our bosses can ask us anything that concerns them right there ON THE SPOT.

Blame me for being narrow-minded, but it really gets me going to know that authority is making me study ENGLISH again.

BLAH.

And I.T.? Don't even get me started. Because we SOOOOOOO need to know how to make a freaking 'noob ass' website for a 'big ass' company when we get a job in Engineering/Science. D'oh.

AND PRESENTATIONS SHOULD BE DONE IN 'ENGLISH AND COMMUNICATION SKILLS' INSTEAD IMO.DUN.U.THINK??? (IMO = in my opinion. If you didn't know, I apologize for your ignorance)

*cuss moment* bloody fat bastard is banging on his roommate's door because he forgot his keys again and locked himself out. dumb biatch. *cuss moment*

Wow, this post is so super random.

Anyways, I'll move on to the lighter side of my life here.

Have possibly lost a good friend, but have made closer bonds with others whom I was not so close to before whatever incident that had occurred. It's sort of a repercussion, I figure. Ah well, you win some, you lose some. :B

I find it comforting now that I have met some people on and outside campus which I, probably, am proud to say, do not consider me as any sort of a freak, due to my attitude and the way I talk(very rudely, at times most of the time). I would definitely call myself an introvert when asked, but why am I so noisy when in public? It confuses me.

I would like to list down the great people I've met online, and also in person, but I doubt they would like to have anyone but themselves know of their relation with me. Or is it the other way around? Blek. :p

If any of you are reading(which I honestly hope not), thanks for treating me so nicely and for those free take-aways so early in the morning and so late at night. Seems I do not hate McDonald's so much after all(well, just as long as it's free). Nyaha. :p

But really, thanks guys you all. :x

Wrongfully written by,

The Milkman

To All Whom May Be Concerned,

It's so hypocritical.

The way you ask me to treat others better when I'm mad at them.

Yet you yourself block me on MSN and ignore me in class.

I know I did that to someone, and I'm sorry for it.

And now we're even closer than before.

But I'm not the one who gave that advice and go against it.

Inviting others for gatherings so openly infront of us,

Leaving your other friend behind after class.

The least you can do is treat her better than me.

I didn't even realize you were that type of person.

I suppose you really can't judge a book.

I guess it's a good thing you're ignoring me.

It gives me a chance to know the real person in that shell.

Hope your future friends don't experience this.

They'll eventually feel the way I do.

But I just keep it to myself.

If we never become friends again,

I would feel my loss.

But would you?

: /

Posted sheepishly by,
The Milkman

One For The Road. But Does Anyone Care??

So, there goes my eighteenth birthday. Recieved quite alot of birthday wishes at midnight too. Surprisingly. I never thought people would remember, since I never remember theirs. But thanks fools. :p~

You must be wondering what presents I received. Well, let me tell you, it isn't a PSP, a new phone, or a car for that matter. Here are a few things I recieved from my dear parents this time round;

1. 4-days 5-nights trip to Miri. (I don't celebrate Gawai though)
2. RM100 reload to my DiGi number. (to get that Marie Digby autographed guitar)
3. A pair of spankin' new jeans. (spankin'. huhuh..)
4. A thick wad of cash as 'allowance'. (amount undisclosed)
5. Great breakfasts, lunches, and dinners with my family. (exclude annoying cousin)

Needless to say, I found out I gained like, what, 2kg since I moved to Kuching. This really surprises me because I don't eat very mu-.. Fine, I have been eating every chance I get. Can you blame me? Koko Crunch is laced with opium and cocaine..

I have to say that my camphone died and I 'forgot' to bring the charger. How the hell was I supposed to know that it won't last for 5 days? Wouldn't yours? So no pictures this time. :(

Alright, about my Miri trip. It was great, because I could eat so much great food without having to worry about the bill(Not to imply that I'm frugal with food, but I often don't bring enough money when I go out). The night I came back, I ate like, 2-3 bowls of rice together with my mom's homecooked food. I almost exploded. Though, that wasn't the only time I almost exploded due to overeating.

The next morning, my dad took-away(see? I told you it sounds like stealing) some food from Mr. Ho's(mmph.. 'Ho'.. huhuhuhmm). I had 4 homemade(?) sausages and a Caesar salad. The food from Mr. Ho is damn expensive, but really tasty and good. The sausage skins crack and snap in your mouth. Mmm, apparently Kuching has a Mr. Ho branch as well. Mmm, juicy sausages. *cough*

I can't really remember what food I ate throughout the trip, but all I know is that it was all good.

As my meeting with old friends, it never happened. Some of them weren't up for going out because they had some 'stuff' to do or whatever. Only Samuel made an effort to call us out, but it didn't happen in the end. Aih, am I disappointed? I actually don't care because all I wanted was to spend more time with my parents anyway.

I guess what my dad said it's true.

"Your best friends will be the ones you make during your further studies."

It's kind of hard to deny now that I have now experienced a rift in certain relationships. Maybe he's right after all. Am I sore about this? Not really, no.

I suppose I should just stop here and try to make the best with the people who I'm with now. :)

Once again, thanks to the 21(agak-agak?) people who wished me a happy birthday. I love you all, really. 'Belated's not counted. *cough*

Eh CB, where my presents? You all think I will forget just because you send cute cute de sms la? Stupiak.

Ranted pissfully,
The Milkman

Sorry x1919397495728 !!

SORRY WAN SHIN !!

Should have never asked you to climb down the wall to get back into campus.

SORRY SORRY SORRY !!

T_T

I swear I will carry all your stuff until you can walk without pain.

Omigourd Omigourd Omigourd !!

I deserve the 10289472 blisters on my feet !!

Gah, going insane with guilt.

With shaky hands,

The Milkman

Who Cares About The Exam?

I saw you as I entered the auditorium.

Saw the same shirt you wore last week.

And those familiar pants as well.

They look so cute on you.

Then you gave me a short glance.

I felt a little broken when you didn't smile at me.

But that's okay.

Before sitting for the exam I wondered;
'Maybe this is going too far..
I'm not supposed to do this..
They'll think I'm weird again..
I should really just stay away..
But who am I trying to kid..
I think I'm starting to fall again..
Shit, exam started..'

In between the exam I spaced out;
'You always make me happy..
Being around you is always fun..
Every single thing that you do..
Listening to you, talking to me..
Looking at you, smiling at me..
I can't get you out of my mind..
Fuck, you wasted my 5 minutes..'

After the exam I thought to myself;
'I hope you will understand..
If you ever find out about me..
I wonder if you'll freak out..
I'm nothing special anyway..
Maybe you have someone else..
If only you'll tell me sooner..
Before I say "I-'

OMG.

You're waiting for your ride home, and I accompany my friend till hers
arrives. Then you look at your phone, and step in closer to me. My heart
palpates harder, my face tenses up. I can't help but smile. You move next to me
and stay there. Why are you doing this to me? Can't you just go away? Oh, how I
hate you for being who you are. I just walk away so I can freaking stop smiling
to myself.

Don't ask me for help,
I want to shake you down.
Don't sit next to me,
I want to break your knee.
Don't start talking to me,
I want to pinch your cheeks.
Don't stand close to me,
I want to go freaking crazy.

Grr.

:)

Blushingly babbled,
The Milkman

You Make My Brain Pass Out.

I cant believe you.

You ask me so much when I haven't done anything.

Why do you keep blaming me for your errors?

I have to do everything for you.

Even the simple, silly mistakes that you do.

..but..

Who am I to complain?

When I hear your voice, and my mind goes blank.

I look into your eyes, and I forget you're talking to me.

I feel your knee against mine, and I'm paralyzed.

What are you doing to me?

I can't focus when you talk to me. I never kept eye contact with someone so
intently as I do with you. It annoys me, the way you make everything seem
alright. I keep wanting to open my mouth so I can ask you to shut up, but if I
did, I wouldn't be able to hear your funny voice. You keep me awake when I feel
sleepy. Having you in the room or beside me is like amphetamine;

[I'm physically tired, but your presence keeps me wide awake]
[I can see you clearly, but everything else around you blurs up]
[I hear you talking to me, but I can't seem to pay any attention]
[You ask me to do something, and I only want to stare at you]
[My friends call me for my help, but I'm preoccupied with you]
[I can't seem to find things, things that I had just put beside me]
[It's risky to be with you, but it only makes me want you more]

You're nothing but a drug.

And I'm addicted to you.

Please don't disappoint me.

I can't stand being without you.

Moron.

:)

With blushing cheeks,
The Milkman

You Make My Day..

I suppose everyone else feels the same way I do about you.
Laugh at your funny actions, answer your silly questions.
They love your smile, and so do I, but even more.
I ask myself in full curiosity, ‘am I jealous?’
I reply with total sincerity, ‘nope.’

Maybe this is the reason you make me smile,
You treat me as a friend and nothing more.

I have yet to expect anything from you,
For you have already given me all I need.

Hope things don’t change between us,
Because I like the place we’re at now.

I smile to myself unknowingly,
Whenever an image of you flashes in my head.

It’s true, maybe I want something more from this,
But you’re too good to be kept by just one person.

Though, I would prefer not to share. Heh.

:)

…

Just knowing you’re sitting at your usual spot,
I bite my lip, to stop myself from smiling.
As I sit down and stare blankly to the front,
I could only hear your voice, blurring out all others.
It’s nice when you speak to your friends,
The way you turn around, and flash that smile.
I listen quietly as I take out my papers,
To your voice, so warm and funny.

Why are you the way you are?

Even though we didn’t spend much time today,
Time wasted in the discussion room laughing,

It was okay,

I was fine,

All because,

You smiled at me, before I turned away,
During our last class of the day.

I cannot express my feelings when you did,
There are no words to express it;

‘Happiness without reason.’

But maybe I was mistaken to my misfortune,
Maybe it was meant to be for someone else,
Someone behind or beside me?

But, really,

I don’t care.

I saw you smile.

You were happy.

And that’s all I need to know.

You make my day.

:)

Still smiling to himself,
The Milkman

You Make My Ears Red..

It's true.

As you smiled to the camera,

When I took a picture of you on stage,

I realized that I got what I wanted.

You did notice me looking at you,

Even though it was for a picture,

Nevertheless, it was more than I could ask for.

How great was it to experience this day with you together with our friends. I have some pictures of you to keep as memory. Though I was not in any of the pictures with you, having these pictures of you being yourself is more than I can ask for. I don't know why I find these simple things so sufficient for myself. I usually ask for more than I should, but it seems every little thing that you do, is just good enough to me. I like this feeling, because I can get more than I'll ever need.

Always be yourself;
You give me so much for being that way.

If you ever ask me why,
Why I feel for you the way I do,
It's only because;
You make my ears red.

Lastly, thank you Diana, for mistakenly booking 2 extra seats for Syaz and I. If it weren't for your mistake, I woulden't have had this experience. Muah~

Blushingly exposed,

The Milkman

Not Again..

I can't believe I'm falling into the same spiral down to fated disappointment.

Why does this always happen to me? It's not as if I ask for it.

Well, maybe I do, but it doesn't have to become real.

I don't deserve this. Not this near to my exams.

Though, there's always a reason for everything.

And I think I'm slipping again because;

You're always in the same room.

Sometimes you sit beside me or across the table.

The false glances that you give, make me smile on the inside.

I don't want to like you, I don't want to like people like you.

Yet, you're different.

But how much?

. . .

Things have been happening that I can't help but notice.

My presence is being known, being acknowledged and being referred to.

You don't call me by name, but I don't mind.

Your company is welcomed by everyone else.

It's the way you are that makes everybody want to have you around.

You lean closer when you need help, I am more than eager to assist you.

I will watch you go on stage this Wednesday from the audience.

I hope you notice me looking at you.


Damn.


I feel so helpless, just being able to look at you from a distance.

I don't know if you are who I hope you are.

Yet I wish I woulden't find out.

I'd rather be hurt knowing you have someone else now.

Than have you hurt me when things go wrong.

I'm over my Phantasmic Crush, my unGraphite Lover and that Beautiful Liar.

I'm ready for something new.


But not right now.


Can you stop acting like yourself?
..It's getting to me..

Be gentle, but don't lose your grip...

Sadly confessed by,

The Milkman

Stupid Girl, Stupid Girl.

Omg, I love Shoes.

Anyway, Kristine tagged me. This would be presumably the first and last tag I'll ever do. Why am I doing it? I'm worried there might a curse related to tag breaking. Needless to say I won't tag anyone back. Well, I would tag Kristine back if I could. Just to annoy her. :3

Meh, here goes.

Name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 5 friends. NO CHEATING yeah! (: Hello? How can people not 'cheat' when they read through the whole thing? Screw honesty. :) <-and smileys go like THIS.

1. Kristiepookums~
2. Grace-who's-coming-to-Kuching.
3. Sarah-because-she's-Graces-friend.
4. Eri-.. Uh..
5. Jesus Christ. :3~

1. How did you meet 1?
In a field of white marigolds and yellow daisies. She first started ruining my life in Form 1.

2. On a scale of 1 -10 how would u rate your friendship with 1?
10. Because she is the queen of my life. -10. Because she is the queen bitch of my life. Lurve euux, mai funny hunny bunny! Muahhxxzsxzsx!

3. How long have you known 4?
For as long as I f*cking want to know him. 2 years-ish. :'(

4. How do you know number 3?
Through a sleazy dating website. Through Lydia Chiewie Chiew Chiew. Sarah is my 7th soul mate according to alphabetical order.

5. Where's 5?
He's everywhere to me.

6. A fact about number 1?
She has a giant mole, which I love. She has a giant mole, which I hate.

7. Who is 4 going out with?
He'd better not be going out with someone before telling me. The idiot. :'(

8. What does 1 do for a living?
Produces pretty pink gas from her backside. Being an ass, like me. :3

9. Would you live with number 3?
No, she would use my towels and toothbrush. Nope. I don't believe guys should live with girls. Even I'm a different type of guy. Meheheh.

10. What do you like about number 2?
I can break her anytime I want if she ever pisses me off. I honestly don't know why I like any of my friends. It's just the connection we have with each other.

11. Do you miss number 5?
Nope. He's always with me.

12. Would you make out with number 4?
I don't know.. :'(

13. What’s your opinion of number 2?
She's a crossbreed between stick insect and bamboo. She understands the pain of having high metabolism. :(

14. What's your favorite memory with number 5?
Back in confirmation camp. Though I seriously hated the part where the stupid facilitator man brought me down to the floor when I was crying after being blessed by the holy oil(?). Like, seriously, people wanna cry with God, you pull them down to the dirty floor to curl up like a fried prawn. Bodoh. :(

15. What would you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
Thatt's hawtt. That would be disturbing(hypocrite hypocrite hypocrite) and I seriously doubt it would happen.

16. Ever had a long conversation with 5?
No doubt. When I desperately needed someone to talk to about all my problems with my family and with 'who I am'. He was always there for me for a chat. Free of charge summore.

17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?
*giggle* Nope. She never invited me. She sucks.

18. Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
Oh yeah, she mah homie, yo. Used to. She's now in KL studying.. Without me..

19. Who have you known the longest?
5.

20. How often do you talk to 1?
Talk is overrated. Quite often. Even more when we were in school together. She ish maii laling gurr gurr. *puke*

21. What about 2?
What about her? I guess it's the same thing. She's moving to Kuching soon, so I get to talk more and piss her off in real life~

22. Have you ever thought of 4 as more than a friend?
Uh.. :x

23. Would you go out for a date with 3?
If she paid for dinner. Not really. Because dates are so boring. I'd rather have everyone out! And STILL have her pay. :P

24. Do you dream about 2?
What kind of dream? *giggle* Nope. But she dreamt about me once. *giggle* :)

25. What did no 4 do to you that you can never forget?
Calling me the first time.

26. What have you done for 1 that the person can never forget?
Simply being in her life la. Letting her see as I hit someone in the forehead with a tennis ball.

27. What's 3 hobby?
Act kiutxz. Panicking before exams.

Tag 5 people:
Someone who has too much free time on her hands.
Kristine.
Kristine.
Kristine.
Kristine.
Kristine.

Tagiliciously done,
The Milkman