Sorry x1919397495728 !!

SORRY WAN SHIN !!

Should have never asked you to climb down the wall to get back into campus.

SORRY SORRY SORRY !!

T_T

I swear I will carry all your stuff until you can walk without pain.

Omigourd Omigourd Omigourd !!

I deserve the 10289472 blisters on my feet !!

Gah, going insane with guilt.

With shaky hands,

The Milkman

Who Cares About The Exam?

I saw you as I entered the auditorium.

Saw the same shirt you wore last week.

And those familiar pants as well.

They look so cute on you.

Then you gave me a short glance.

I felt a little broken when you didn't smile at me.

But that's okay.

Before sitting for the exam I wondered;
'Maybe this is going too far..
I'm not supposed to do this..
They'll think I'm weird again..
I should really just stay away..
But who am I trying to kid..
I think I'm starting to fall again..
Shit, exam started..'

In between the exam I spaced out;
'You always make me happy..
Being around you is always fun..
Every single thing that you do..
Listening to you, talking to me..
Looking at you, smiling at me..
I can't get you out of my mind..
Fuck, you wasted my 5 minutes..'

After the exam I thought to myself;
'I hope you will understand..
If you ever find out about me..
I wonder if you'll freak out..
I'm nothing special anyway..
Maybe you have someone else..
If only you'll tell me sooner..
Before I say "I-'

OMG.

You're waiting for your ride home, and I accompany my friend till hers
arrives. Then you look at your phone, and step in closer to me. My heart
palpates harder, my face tenses up. I can't help but smile. You move next to me
and stay there. Why are you doing this to me? Can't you just go away? Oh, how I
hate you for being who you are. I just walk away so I can freaking stop smiling
to myself.

Don't ask me for help,
I want to shake you down.
Don't sit next to me,
I want to break your knee.
Don't start talking to me,
I want to pinch your cheeks.
Don't stand close to me,
I want to go freaking crazy.

Grr.

:)

Blushingly babbled,
The Milkman

You Make My Brain Pass Out.

I cant believe you.

You ask me so much when I haven't done anything.

Why do you keep blaming me for your errors?

I have to do everything for you.

Even the simple, silly mistakes that you do.

..but..

Who am I to complain?

When I hear your voice, and my mind goes blank.

I look into your eyes, and I forget you're talking to me.

I feel your knee against mine, and I'm paralyzed.

What are you doing to me?

I can't focus when you talk to me. I never kept eye contact with someone so
intently as I do with you. It annoys me, the way you make everything seem
alright. I keep wanting to open my mouth so I can ask you to shut up, but if I
did, I wouldn't be able to hear your funny voice. You keep me awake when I feel
sleepy. Having you in the room or beside me is like amphetamine;

[I'm physically tired, but your presence keeps me wide awake]
[I can see you clearly, but everything else around you blurs up]
[I hear you talking to me, but I can't seem to pay any attention]
[You ask me to do something, and I only want to stare at you]
[My friends call me for my help, but I'm preoccupied with you]
[I can't seem to find things, things that I had just put beside me]
[It's risky to be with you, but it only makes me want you more]

You're nothing but a drug.

And I'm addicted to you.

Please don't disappoint me.

I can't stand being without you.

Moron.

:)

With blushing cheeks,
The Milkman

You Make My Day..

I suppose everyone else feels the same way I do about you.
Laugh at your funny actions, answer your silly questions.
They love your smile, and so do I, but even more.
I ask myself in full curiosity, ‘am I jealous?’
I reply with total sincerity, ‘nope.’

Maybe this is the reason you make me smile,
You treat me as a friend and nothing more.

I have yet to expect anything from you,
For you have already given me all I need.

Hope things don’t change between us,
Because I like the place we’re at now.

I smile to myself unknowingly,
Whenever an image of you flashes in my head.

It’s true, maybe I want something more from this,
But you’re too good to be kept by just one person.

Though, I would prefer not to share. Heh.

:)

…

Just knowing you’re sitting at your usual spot,
I bite my lip, to stop myself from smiling.
As I sit down and stare blankly to the front,
I could only hear your voice, blurring out all others.
It’s nice when you speak to your friends,
The way you turn around, and flash that smile.
I listen quietly as I take out my papers,
To your voice, so warm and funny.

Why are you the way you are?

Even though we didn’t spend much time today,
Time wasted in the discussion room laughing,

It was okay,

I was fine,

All because,

You smiled at me, before I turned away,
During our last class of the day.

I cannot express my feelings when you did,
There are no words to express it;

‘Happiness without reason.’

But maybe I was mistaken to my misfortune,
Maybe it was meant to be for someone else,
Someone behind or beside me?

But, really,

I don’t care.

I saw you smile.

You were happy.

And that’s all I need to know.

You make my day.

:)

Still smiling to himself,
The Milkman

You Make My Ears Red..

It's true.

As you smiled to the camera,

When I took a picture of you on stage,

I realized that I got what I wanted.

You did notice me looking at you,

Even though it was for a picture,

Nevertheless, it was more than I could ask for.

How great was it to experience this day with you together with our friends. I have some pictures of you to keep as memory. Though I was not in any of the pictures with you, having these pictures of you being yourself is more than I can ask for. I don't know why I find these simple things so sufficient for myself. I usually ask for more than I should, but it seems every little thing that you do, is just good enough to me. I like this feeling, because I can get more than I'll ever need.

Always be yourself;
You give me so much for being that way.

If you ever ask me why,
Why I feel for you the way I do,
It's only because;
You make my ears red.

Lastly, thank you Diana, for mistakenly booking 2 extra seats for Syaz and I. If it weren't for your mistake, I woulden't have had this experience. Muah~

Blushingly exposed,

The Milkman

Not Again..

I can't believe I'm falling into the same spiral down to fated disappointment.

Why does this always happen to me? It's not as if I ask for it.

Well, maybe I do, but it doesn't have to become real.

I don't deserve this. Not this near to my exams.

Though, there's always a reason for everything.

And I think I'm slipping again because;

You're always in the same room.

Sometimes you sit beside me or across the table.

The false glances that you give, make me smile on the inside.

I don't want to like you, I don't want to like people like you.

Yet, you're different.

But how much?

. . .

Things have been happening that I can't help but notice.

My presence is being known, being acknowledged and being referred to.

You don't call me by name, but I don't mind.

Your company is welcomed by everyone else.

It's the way you are that makes everybody want to have you around.

You lean closer when you need help, I am more than eager to assist you.

I will watch you go on stage this Wednesday from the audience.

I hope you notice me looking at you.


Damn.


I feel so helpless, just being able to look at you from a distance.

I don't know if you are who I hope you are.

Yet I wish I woulden't find out.

I'd rather be hurt knowing you have someone else now.

Than have you hurt me when things go wrong.

I'm over my Phantasmic Crush, my unGraphite Lover and that Beautiful Liar.

I'm ready for something new.


But not right now.


Can you stop acting like yourself?
..It's getting to me..

Be gentle, but don't lose your grip...

Sadly confessed by,

The Milkman

Stupid Girl, Stupid Girl.

Omg, I love Shoes.

Anyway, Kristine tagged me. This would be presumably the first and last tag I'll ever do. Why am I doing it? I'm worried there might a curse related to tag breaking. Needless to say I won't tag anyone back. Well, I would tag Kristine back if I could. Just to annoy her. :3

Meh, here goes.

Name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 5 friends. NO CHEATING yeah! (: Hello? How can people not 'cheat' when they read through the whole thing? Screw honesty. :) <-and smileys go like THIS.

1. Kristiepookums~
2. Grace-who's-coming-to-Kuching.
3. Sarah-because-she's-Graces-friend.
4. Eri-.. Uh..
5. Jesus Christ. :3~

1. How did you meet 1?
In a field of white marigolds and yellow daisies. She first started ruining my life in Form 1.

2. On a scale of 1 -10 how would u rate your friendship with 1?
10. Because she is the queen of my life. -10. Because she is the queen bitch of my life. Lurve euux, mai funny hunny bunny! Muahhxxzsxzsx!

3. How long have you known 4?
For as long as I f*cking want to know him. 2 years-ish. :'(

4. How do you know number 3?
Through a sleazy dating website. Through Lydia Chiewie Chiew Chiew. Sarah is my 7th soul mate according to alphabetical order.

5. Where's 5?
He's everywhere to me.

6. A fact about number 1?
She has a giant mole, which I love. She has a giant mole, which I hate.

7. Who is 4 going out with?
He'd better not be going out with someone before telling me. The idiot. :'(

8. What does 1 do for a living?
Produces pretty pink gas from her backside. Being an ass, like me. :3

9. Would you live with number 3?
No, she would use my towels and toothbrush. Nope. I don't believe guys should live with girls. Even I'm a different type of guy. Meheheh.

10. What do you like about number 2?
I can break her anytime I want if she ever pisses me off. I honestly don't know why I like any of my friends. It's just the connection we have with each other.

11. Do you miss number 5?
Nope. He's always with me.

12. Would you make out with number 4?
I don't know.. :'(

13. What’s your opinion of number 2?
She's a crossbreed between stick insect and bamboo. She understands the pain of having high metabolism. :(

14. What's your favorite memory with number 5?
Back in confirmation camp. Though I seriously hated the part where the stupid facilitator man brought me down to the floor when I was crying after being blessed by the holy oil(?). Like, seriously, people wanna cry with God, you pull them down to the dirty floor to curl up like a fried prawn. Bodoh. :(

15. What would you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
Thatt's hawtt. That would be disturbing(hypocrite hypocrite hypocrite) and I seriously doubt it would happen.

16. Ever had a long conversation with 5?
No doubt. When I desperately needed someone to talk to about all my problems with my family and with 'who I am'. He was always there for me for a chat. Free of charge summore.

17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?
*giggle* Nope. She never invited me. She sucks.

18. Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
Oh yeah, she mah homie, yo. Used to. She's now in KL studying.. Without me..

19. Who have you known the longest?
5.

20. How often do you talk to 1?
Talk is overrated. Quite often. Even more when we were in school together. She ish maii laling gurr gurr. *puke*

21. What about 2?
What about her? I guess it's the same thing. She's moving to Kuching soon, so I get to talk more and piss her off in real life~

22. Have you ever thought of 4 as more than a friend?
Uh.. :x

23. Would you go out for a date with 3?
If she paid for dinner. Not really. Because dates are so boring. I'd rather have everyone out! And STILL have her pay. :P

24. Do you dream about 2?
What kind of dream? *giggle* Nope. But she dreamt about me once. *giggle* :)

25. What did no 4 do to you that you can never forget?
Calling me the first time.

26. What have you done for 1 that the person can never forget?
Simply being in her life la. Letting her see as I hit someone in the forehead with a tennis ball.

27. What's 3 hobby?
Act kiutxz. Panicking before exams.

Tag 5 people:
Someone who has too much free time on her hands.
Kristine.
Kristine.
Kristine.
Kristine.
Kristine.

Tagiliciously done,
The Milkman

Emo is So Overrated.

.. But that won't stop me from taking emo-inspired pics!
*Please note that I said emo-'inspired'. Meaning I am not involved in whatever lame 'trend' it's supposed to represent.*

Recently, we've been playing with bubbles in the discussion rooms at the library. In addition to that, I also miss taking pics of my stupid friends.



It started off with mindless bubble blowing, killing our study time. See that glass window at the door? People that catch glances into our room usually backtrack. We find it annoying.

Anyways, here are some of the pics.

Jessica. This will be, 'Lost Barble Idiot'.

Diana. I call this, 'Ignored Barble Idiot'.

Syaz. Ala 'Used Barble Idiot'.

Myself. In 'Lonely Barble Idiot'.

It's lame, I know, but when else do you get to do this? I miss my stupid old friends even more now. Luckily, I got my Barble group to keep me insane. *deep sigh*



Even after the 'photoshoot' while I was eating my burger, they continue to shower me with 'love'. Where else can you find idiots friends like these? Miri la. :P



Oh yeah, here's our beloved Physics teacher. She's so cool. Demonstrating to us about standing/stationary waves in the 7th floor hallway. Okay, I don't mean she's cool just because she brought us to the hallway to watch a slinky on the floor, but her teaching style is just so good. :D The guy holding the other end of the slinky is a senior from my old school. Never seen him before though. Maybe it's because he's so weird. Seriously. He's very, very weird. Don't want to say anymore or I'll go into convulsions.

I guess that's all for this post. Will post videos next time when I catch a uniquely retarded moment. Grace will be coming soon, so I don't think those moments will be far from nought. :)

OH YA. I forgot to mention that I was exempted from volunteering in the One Life event taking place in the Spring. I mean, WHAT. THE. FARK. People volunteer, ENTHUSIASTICALLY SUMMORE, and you KICK THEM OUT?! WHAT. THE. FRIGGING. HELL. I don't want a stupid sorry. I want the farking experience and a free T-shirt. BLARGH.

But la.. You people should really go during your free time.. It will be at the Spring from the 1st to the 4th of May, and is open from 10a.m. to 10p.m. It's an exhibit featuring the experiences of real children affected by AIDS and child trafficking. Please go, or be considered as uncaring buttholes.

Barbly speaking,

The Milkman

Omfg, We've Gone Barbles !!

Barbaric bubble fanatics. :O

The other day we were at the Spring(happy, Celes? -_-) during our 2-hour class break. I forgot what day it was, but who cares. I had some Korean bulgogi, a beef dish served with rice.



Not bad gua, the beef was tender and the condiments were pretty good. All for RM11.50. It's still kind of pricey la, but then, got kimchi, so who am I to complain? Didn't think of buying the dumplings until we were on the way back to class. Dam sad. I wan my dumplings.. :'(

Before going back though, we dropped by a toy store in the Spring and decided to buy some bottles of bubble soap for fun. BIG mistake.



..what else is there to say? Luckily the bubbles didn't attack the driver or else.. :x



Back in class, during general maths.



Robin was playing dota while Hubert watched. He's a pro. D:



They got bored. I don't know how the pics came out so horribly barbaric looking.



'Death by The Piinkx Killurz'.

After class we had another 1 hour break or something, so we booked a discussion room in the library. Pretty much a waste, because..



We spent the whole time either blowing bubbles or taking stupid pictures..



..or both at the same time. It's an interpretation of 'Bubble Madness'. :3 SO WHAT IF YOU THINK IT'S LAME?! D:

So, that's basically our day spent. On bubbles. We really need to grow up. I honestly think no one in this uni can understand us.. I suppose it's true that people with the same problems(in this case, mental problems) understand each other the most. Why won't anyone join us? Jamie? :'(



Oh, here's my first uploaded Youtube video. It's not very long, but it shows what it's meant to show. :)

Hopefully Grace can join us once she's here. :3~

Recorded ninjafully,
The Milkman

Sunday Wasn't As Expected..

So you can call it UNexpected. Get it? Get it? HAHAHA. -.- Anyways, has been like, 3-4-5-6 weeks since I went to Sunday mass. Feel so nawtie~ Spank me, spank me! LOLOLOLOL!! SICK SICK SICK. :P~



I forgot what cathedral this was named after. St.Joseph isit? Meh. Anyways, the father today was Father Jo, a classmate of my father a LONG LONG LONG time ago. Hated the choir. SO not like Miri's St.Joseph cathedral. I miss the choir there.. They sing BETTER. D:

After mass we were driven by illegal van(WOO, BAD ASS FEEL??!!) to Gamelan, an Indonesian restaurant nearby the uni campus.



Churchy people. :3



Weird decor. Texan vineyard motif?? o_o

The food was nothing extraordinary. The only thing I really enjoyed was the soy sauce. It's true.. Anyways, after the over-priced dinner we headed off to the Springs which was just walking distance. Twas CRAZY when C, P and I wanted to cross the freaking road. The two were screaming mad trying to find the right moment to cross.

"READY ONOT? GO GO GO!"
"OMG NO!"
"OK OK AFTER THIS ONE!"
"REALLY?! CAN AH?!"
"AIYA AIYA CANNOOOOT!"
"CAN GO LIAO LAAAA~"
"JORDAN JORDAN! DUNNNN!"
"WAIT WAIT! USE HAND, USE HAND!"
"USE HAND WHAT??!!"
"STOP USE HAND LA!"
"I NO HANDPHONE STOP!"
"NO! USE HAND STOP!"
"HANDPHONE USE FOR STOP?!"
"STOP CAR STOP LA!"
"STOP CAR USE HANDPHONE?!"
"OMG OMG CAN GO CAN GO-"
"HARR??!!"

*AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH*

o_o'''

Needless to say, we crossed the road safely. Praise the Lord. Omg, I'm turning holy-poly. Darn you Grace, and your purple holy figure shirt.



First purchase of the day: 1 Cucumber. :)



The girls spent a lot of time in this section. Very chocoholic.



Recognize?



It's Grace and Sarah! Oh, see wrong.. :'(



It really perplexes me why a high end concept store would use a silhouette of a BILLY GOAT for it's emblem. Maybe it's because some of these goats live high up in the mountains and this is like a high end store and like- Okay, I'll shut up.



RC Car exhibition..



Nerd to the power of infinity pl0x.



They shop. I sit.



I sit. They shop.



Wasted away the rest of our Sunday at Secret Recipe.



The cakes are generally cheaper here compared to Coffee Bean and Starbucks though. But guess what I had.



Cow shit. Shepherd's pie(o rly..?). The mashed potato was sour, the beef was stringy, the sauce was too salty. All for the special price of RM8.60.



Children's mini burgers. Looks like.. *cough*. I didn't take it though. Looked phunkie..



When it came I couldn't help but grin to myself. If only they were my usual group of friends, I sure will mumble, "Uhuhum, 'mEaTbAlLs~'. :3" Really ba! So BIG BALLS. LOLOLOLOLOL. :]



I forgot to pray with them. -.- SO Christian pls. I should learn. :p~



B, St and Sa. B is a banana too :) St is Melanau + Chinese :O and Sa has a really cute name :3



P and C. SO Grace and Sarah.. :'(

After the heavy supper we headed back to the campus because it was getting quite late(we're all hostile hostel people). Past curfew actually. :x So they showed me a 'convenient shortcut' as my seniors. Oh ya, believe it or not, they're all older than me. D: How how how?? I feel so kiddy. And SOMEONE is 20+. :3 Anyways, the 'panjat' ordeal was really cute. Made me feel a little bad ass for once. :P

I guess that's pretty much it. I don't know if I'll ever go out with them like that again. Even I myself thought I was boring as compared when being with my Sambals. :( Oh well, such is the lamer. :3~

Concluded awkwardly,
The Milkman

Haven't posted in a while due to the really hectic week. Had a stupid english assignment and 2 exams at the end of the week, which was yesterday. Needless to say, I made a few careless mistakes along the way. Totally pissed off with myself for that, but I can't change it now. Forgot to take more pics of the week. Alot happened but I really can't remember without some visual reminders. :(



Laptop here.



Laptop there.



Laptops everywhere! Been having to bring our laptops to classes because we were rushing on the damn english assignment. I've been lugging mine around like an autistic person with a short leg. The other day I had to carry 3 laptops(weighing up to an estimated 8kg altogether? Excluding chargers, which were an added 1kg.) up 8 FLOORS. I'm dead serious. You might think if you carry up weights up like that it doesn't seem like a big task, but imagine slinging the bags around your shoulders and have one more that you have to hand carry only. They swing like mad over my stalky frame and if I drop any, you guess who have to keluar wang pampasan?

(And I can't believe Grace got a more later model compare to mine. Curse her mute button to completely malfunction when she's in class playing games. BLAH.)



Here's Bings!(the exclamation mark is in the name, not because I'm so sakai. Duh.) Never really been in a coffee shop of this kind before, the ones that are individually owned and operated. Kind of cool to have your own coffee shop(I guess kopitiam oso cool??) but those in Miri wouldn't survive past 3 months or less due to the fact that most Mirians would not pay RM8-12 for a kopi-c made from beans grown from who knows where and poured into a paper cup with a 'modern-looking' cover to sip from.



It's not SO hard, unless you're a lazy-shit-ass-pig(like me). :x



Debate competition in the auditorium! The Lodge school won. For the 3rd year in a row apparently. I wholly support private schools. For the simple reason that quality beats having no operating gas chambers in the damn laboratory. Just not those with a certain 'Dr.' involved. Back to topic, I know, what hell shit auditorium is this when you pay so much for the aircond in class right? But you wait(till this August, 2008)! Supposedly the new buildings will be completed by the next semester. Which is just as good, because I'm starting to feel jealous of the INTI buildings which are newer. Whatever, Grace. :(



Supposedly this guy bumped his car onto some other student from campus. 'L' stand for LOOOO- fine, I won't do it..



Little spazzing study group before the exam. The 3 guys on the right are classmates only, not Kuasa Sambal members. :[

During the exam, there were a few people who finished up really fast. I was like, 'thefackthefackthefackthefack'. Seriously, if you're super smart and fast at everything, can you PLEASE make yourself ugly? At least there's one thing bad about you, because those who finished up quickly were PRETTY PEOPLE. Thehellthehellthehellthehell. As usual, I confused myself and made a few careless mistakes with the graph sketching. I R STUPIDER. D: After the engineering maths exam we headed over to the Springs for some lunch before the general maths paper.



We had beef noodles. How much? RM5.50. It was okay lah, but was it worth the money? Hellnohellnohellnohellno. If it was RM3.50 per plate I would have definitely had another one, even though there were a heaven's worth of choices around. Glorious food.. Oh, how I love God for giving us hunger. Fine, maybe not for the impoverished countries, but who ask the government not to ban 'bonking'? :'( I had some Korean dumplings too but they went down my mouth before I even thought of taking a picture of them. How much? RM5.50 too. How many pieces? 5. Yayayaya, "RM1.10 for 1 dumpling!?". Eff u. Got dumplings, got happy, OK not?



Something called 'Ice Puree'. How can you puree ice? This one was with mango and longan. Not bad lor, but the really nice thing about this thing? The little coloured balls of jelly sprinkled on top. Although they looked like enlarged, big-headed spermatozoa. They had a nice texture though.. o_O



I suppose I'll end this post with a glutton shot from Diana's phone. I often eat with one hand only, so don't say I'm retarded or something.

OH OH OH. Grace wanted me to post this up.



TADA!! SuP3r kAw4ii d3RhxX l3NgLu1Zs gUrLzZ !!

Omfg, seriously la, typing that was more annoying than reading it. But missing the old days. Shall post about that day soon.. :'(

Mentally regurgitated by,

The Milkman

Ako Bengkrap D.

Spent exactly RM 149.60 today.

Was spent on lunch and my groceries, both roughly around Rm 70+, so I suppose it's not so bad, because lunch was very filling and I bought alot of stuff from the Ta Kiong grocery store. Basically, today was a day that I was prepared to spend my money on. Well, not my money. Technically it's my parents'. But, whatever. :3



They were like all "Irashaimase". Then I was all "Up yours leh". I find the unified greeting thing very lame and unnecessary.



I didn't know the rules about the discount saying that we should eat 2 of the same coloured plates of sushi in order for the rule to apply, so we ended up trying to get an even number of plates and over-ate like, 3 extra plates of sushi. Which might not sound much to you, but..



Little by little..



It became taller than she is! D: Should be around 27 plates I think(didn't manage to stuff one last red plate sushi down).



No, they don't actually like to camwhore. :x Jessica and Diana.



Omg, the girls back home(which are scattered everywhere now..), would LOVE this store. There's some eyecandy here as well according to Diana, if you know what I mean. -.-



The one in the middle is Shaza. She was our driver for today. :)



.. I so wanted to just leave. These two didn't buy anything in the end. Well, Diana was waiting for her mom to come by, so SHE would pay. Ultimanja. D:



My idea of shopping. There's such a benefit to being lightweight. Though, there was this lame ass stranger freakus shitus who stopped us and told me to get off because I could damage the wheels. For fuckness sake, you'd think they designed the damn thing to hold as much weight as possible. Or was he calling me fat? Mind your own buisness la, moron.



"Mommy mommy, go faster! Whee!"



Gathered in Starbucks before seeing Diana off and dropping me off back at the campus. Was actually my first time in a Starbucks, really. The items are like a quarter more expensive than what we have in Miri's Coffee Bean. D:



And this was just for lunch..

All in all, the day was filled with good food and good company. Still missing the old days in Parkson, but I guess The Spring would have to suffice for now. Meheheheheheh. :)

Bloated by Rice,

The Milkman